Blue

Tonight I had one of what im sure will be a lifetime of heartstopping moments.  While giving Dillon his colic medication he choked and within seconds started turning blue. Everything stopped I couldn't hear or see anything but Dillon. In the middle of Dodger stadium time stood still.  Luckily we knew what to do and reacted quickly.  Hearing and seeing him screaming again and his color coming back was such a huge relief. . . In the moment I was fine but after the adrenaline wore off and the nerves took over. It took all of me not to completely fall apart. Holding him knowing he was ok but also how bad that could have been. On mother's day we were walking behind a toddler who began to choke and again those parents acted quickly but I stood with them until the little one was ok to help in any way and felt panicked waiting for that little one to breath normally again. Today was that feeling multiplied by 10. I know this was small but it still scared the living daylight out of me. I Love this little man with my whole being and am sure he will give us many more scares in various ways but I have an amazing support system and know together we will make sure he is fine and safe while still having fun.