December

December. . . I have anxiously awaited this month with so many mixed emotions.
In the beginning of 2017 we celebrated our 5th wedding anniversary and Dillon turning 2, then a few weeks later we got the biggest surprise blessing Easter morning that we were pregnant . From that day forward I have been looking forward to December. Wondering what the rest of the year would have in store as we prepared to become a family of four.
Then mid August our year took another unexpected turn when Dean found the lump in his neck. Trying to figure out what was going on and getting bad news on surgery day, October 13th, we then had to try to schedule everything and still prepare for Mason. Last month we scheduled deans radioactive iodine treatment and prayed mason would cooperate and not come early so that we didn't have to reschedule. Every doctors appointment and every time I was sent to labor and delivery we just wanted a clean bill of health for mason and to be able to go home.
Now here we are December 1st, 3 days from his treatment, and I'm once again full of emotions. I am so grateful God answered our prayers and Dean will be able to complete his treatment before Mason arrives but I'm also scared. Scared for the possibility of Dean missing the delivery and scared for the next week without Dean.  I'm going to take it extremely easy and hope Mason stays comfy and am going to try to keep Dillon distracted from the fact daddy isn't home. Thankfully I have my amazing family to support us and help us through all of this.
Starting Friday will be all new emotions, excitement to have Deans treatment behind us, excitement to be 38 weeks pregnant, excitement to have Dean home, and excitement for Dillon to be becoming a big brother. But also nerves as the countdown to csection day begins. My Csection is scheduled for December 19th at 130 and as excited and ready as I am to hold Mason and finally have him here, so many other emotions come with it. I'm not looking forward to the hospital stay and being away from Dillon, I'm a little nervous for the csection itself, and then also just the normal mom fears of having two littles and how we will adjust to this new chapter.
I am praying this month goes smoothly, that there are no complications with Deans treatment and it gets it all, that his follow up for the bleeding in his lungs goes well and doesn't show any other complications, that my csection goes smoothly and recovery is fast and Mason is healthy, that Dillon remains excited enjoys Christmas and enjoys being a big brother, and that we end 2017 on a good note and in good health.