Unexpected changes

 I knew having a baby would bring so much joy and love into our lives but so much else has changed that I never could have expected. First, my love for my husband is completely different, watching him with Dillon is so amazing and knowing we made this adorable little human together is well weird lol but at the same time brings us together in a whole new way. Second, my respect for my body. To watch how much it changed and adapted and how it grew, supported, and delivered a life is incredible! I am embracing every stretch mark, my mommy pooch, and my incision scar because they are reminders of how truly amazing God designed our bodies and are love marks from carrying Dillon. Third, my belief in God. Dont get me wrong I have always believed in God but to watch this miracle grow and form and then to hold this baby and try to figure out how it fit in my body and even more crazy how my body formed it shows how God truly does work miracles and I feel so blessed he chose me to be a mommy and entrusted Dean and I with Dillon. Finally the one thing that has changed the most and I never expected was my family. We have always been very close but somehow we grew closer we bonded on a new level and we seriously are all best friends. Sarah and I have always been sisters but over these past ten months we have become the best of friends and are inseparable. I seriously cannot go an hour without thinking of something I want to tell her and cannot wait until our next adventure.I also love how amazing she is with Dillon and seeing their bond. After spending pretty much every hour of his first week of life with him he really does adore her and they will have an amazing bond for the rest of Dillon's life. Dillon is also so spoiled by you, I dont know any aunt who buys not one but two huge bounce houses for their nieces or nephews. I love how they have sunday night sleepover and am so thankful we get one night to clean and get some sleep before the week to come(we are blessed to have this opportunity). I also have a whole new respect for my parents Ann & Alan and one of my favorite things to do is to watch them interact with Dillon. We again have always been close but its so different now there is a different bond and connection we have. Thank you for allowing us to invade your house, take over your attic with toys and baby stuff, and for reminding us even though this isnt easy we are amazing parents and are doing great. I also love how close Dean and them have all become. Watching Dean interact wkth my family you would see a he has known them his whole life, he jusy fits perfectly into our craziness. I seriously cannot thank you four enough and am so blessed to call you all my best friends.
 Dealing with this depression has been hard but having your help and knowing you are there whenever I need anything is more help than I can ever explain. The times you take him so I can breath, clean, or get some rest is such a huge relief and how understanding you are that sometimes I just need to stay in PJ's, or helping me clean, do laundry, cooking for us, and reminding me to keep fighting, how to fight, and that i am doing my best, am a great mommy, this is depression is not my fault and is out of my control keeps me sane and gives me the courage and strength I need. I cannot thank you all enough. I am so overjoyed with how strong our bond has become and am excited to raise Dillon with the five of us always there when he needs anything and showering him with love and support every step of the way! God has truly blessed me and this past year has been so incredible.